The story of the beginning after the end.My mom woke me up and screamed something like "It burns, and out." I wasnt really awake. I saw that the balcony and bathroom was on fire. I still didnt know what was happening, I ran down to my dads place and knocked as hard as possible on the door, I woke him and my sis and lil bro up and my mom got dressed there cause there was no freaking time. I ran down and hit all the doorbells on my house so they´d wake up. I stood outside on the street, only in tshirt and boxershorts and saw the house burning down. The neighbours came out too and screamed cause over out apartement thingy theres like a fucking family with 8 ppl 5 of them are kids and like since our apartment was burning they couldnt get out and all the smoke went upstairs. I didnt realise anything. Okay.. Excuse me now, i dont feel like talking about it anymore. I had to talk about it too much today... I lost Everything.
Everything.
Everything I owned. Since almost 16 years Everything.
Im at my grandmas place right now, and I´m drunk. After like 2 hours after the fire and all the fucking interviews and mind fucking I needed a break and like I could save my bike out of the basement thingy cause It just was full of water even though they didnt allow me to cause the house almost broke apart and shit. but like yeah i got it and went outside and met this girl from my class, and like boop, she helped me alot and then we went back to my place and the house still burned and blah blah and we went to a friend and then he gave me some clothes and shit and then blah blah we went to other people and everyone asked questions and after all, I dunno I never felt so optimistic. I never was. I always was the most pessimistic one but today, I dont know.. Around all these people. I was alive. I am.
I lost everything All the computer stuff too, all my flash movies and all the stuff I worked on since years. Its all gone.
I dont know what to do anymore.. I gotta look forward, but for what? I really dont know anymore. Well, if you read any of my shitty mood journals you know how unstabil I am and yeah.. well this is the end for now. I just mean.. We dont have anything anymore, no money nowhere to live.. its all gone. i dont know anymore. Well, I´m out.. i dont know if I´ll ever return or anything.. Im just.. I dont know anymore..
Excuse me.
Maybe I´ll write a journal tomorrow again about my status but I dont know ..
Devious Comments
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"With screams you defy still silence rings.
Prayers to some god won't change a thing.
Gleam in your eyes reduced to tears.
And deep in your heart you've nothing but fear."
~Morbid Angel
though wow, it must seem surreal to
realize that all of your possessional
goods are gone, but if your that type
of person, whos life depends on that
stuff, it might be rough for awhile. despite
how most are saying to be thankful for
your family...which you should be, for
they cant be replaced unlike the things
that were burned to ashes. unless you
hate them with a passion that is
though its resonable that you are going
to be gone for awhile, for you dont have
your flash...computer...and etc, also
resonable to still be pessimistic because
its been short of a day that this has happen.
though who wouldnt be after event like?
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~buzzedbunny: "Sheldoooooooon, you smell like Pea Soooooup"
~zombielily: "Fuck you. That's what you smell like."
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I've moved! Like a turtle! To...
umbles!
Oh man im so sorry for you... I hope evrything will be fine..
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Edn!
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"You have bewitched me, body and soul, and I love, I love, I love you" -Darcy-Pride and Prejudice
"I'm just watching a bad dream that I can never wake up from..."-Cowboy Bebop
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"You have bewitched me, body and soul, and I love, I love, I love you" -Darcy-Pride and Prejudice
"I'm just watching a bad dream that I can never wake up from..."-Cowboy Bebop
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